Did you just fat shame me?

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I got fat shamed a few weeks ago and then the place tried to guilt me into continuing with them. No Lie.
I came across an opportunity that talked about balancing nutrition and exercise in a contest format and I jumped at the opportunity. They were looking for women who wanted to lose 50 lbs and the winner won $1000! Not only did I join but I brought on two friends.

Oh, man was I so excited to get started. I talked about it at run club, I sent in my sports bra and compression pant pics (never have I shared those with a stranger) and filled out the forms. Then things went downhill. I had a suspicions go up when my contact asked me if they could offer me some advice. Then BAM, I was told right away I was doing too much and they suggested a plan more suited to my body (a.k.a. weight). He asked if he could be honest and then said at my weight I shouldn’t be doing so much running.

The too much running I’ve been doing? Leading a 10k clinic. Which you would imagine the fact that I was leading it implied that I had some experience with the distance.

Before I did anything I asked my two girl friends if I was over reacting. I know I can be overly sensitive when my weight is a concern, before I even had a chance to respond to the companies email, both my friends pulled out of the program and the program director was calling me.

Luckily for me, I was at work and since it was a Tuesday I had to rush around to my strength class before leading my clinic. I also needed time to think.

These question’s I filled out didn’t ask about my past, they didn’t know I’d lost over 60 lbs and have kept it off for a few years or that I’ve been running for four years fairly consistently and pain free (pending my current ankle issues). Why did this man feel he was able to pass judgment on me without knowing the full story?

The owner of the company tried calling me several times over Facebook video, when that didn’t work she messaged, asked if she should even try calling again. She promised the employee would be pulled off my program, how it will be so great for me to participate and how his comments came from a place of concern since she was recently diagnosed with issues in her knees from running for years.

That night at my run clinic I had a mini panic attack. Running up Montreal Road (good times) luckily the athletic therapist I’d been seeing happened to be with me at the time and she offered some sound advice. Why was I letting someone who did those crazy fitness bikini contest pass judgment on me? I was going to be spending a lot of money on this six month thing and if it was already bad, how much worse could it get?

When I finally responded to the owner’s message I said I wasn’t comfortable with the language or the processes that were set up and that I didn’t think this was the right program for me (and therefore also pulling out my two friends).

The reply I got back was shocking, she told me how she had lost sleep over this (maybe she cried herself to sleep that previous night as well?) and how I would regret not participating and my friend’s lives would be negatively impacted by this.

Say what??

Did she seriously try to guilt me? Instead of responding with compassion and positive language did she really shame me further?

Oh the responses I wanted to write. Instead I just asked her to remove us from the program. Thankfully none of us had sent in any money yet.

The whole experience left me stunned…. Sure I’m super overweight. Yes this was a program to lose weight but I was so excited to have something that helped me figure out when to eat and what, to help fuel my crazy schedule. I couldn’t believe how violated I felt. Then I got angry, I got angry for letting these people get into my head when I am surrounded by so many amazing health professionals who have helped me reach my crazy and ridiculous goals without shaming me or making me feel less than.

Fuck her and that negativity. I’ll spend (oh and the money I spend) my hard earned dollars somewhere else! And I did, the next day I put down the first payment for a Triathlon training program.

My words of advice? If something seems off, push harder. Don’t settle for someone who makes you feel less than. Especially if you are paying them. I’m so glad I dodged that bullet.

My friends and I, we will be fine.

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Polar Hero Ottawa

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On a cold February morning, Polar Hero descended down on TD Place. I was terrified, when we signed up months ago it seemed just far away that I didn’t have to worry about it. I had to keep a strong face because my friend I was doing it with wasn’t a runner and if I showed any fear, I was worried she would run for the hills! Or away from the hills in this case.

I rushed for the bus and in my haste forgot my hikers I was going to wear. Which meant, I was doing a run in these babies:

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There is a first for everything.

The crowds weren’t crazy and the heats were distributed nicely, which meant people weren’t crawling all over at each obstacle. It also meant that I had some time to collect myself before attempting something I found terrifying. I.e. heading down a hill on a crazy carpet! When do adults become so cautious? I must have done that 100 times as a kid but that bump at the bottom looked intense (have no fear I survived with all my bones intact). I attempted almost every single obstacle. Attempted. I was not nearly as successful.

Turns out I need to work on some upper body to get across the rings and use those ropes. The final climb over obstacle also gave me a run for my money. I think my boots were too soaked and my legs too bruised to actually swing my leg over.

There were times I questioned my safety, especially for someone as clumsy as I. Some of the plates covering the ground acted like sneaky patches of black ice and the snow covered stadium climb. Oh my! But I really had a blast and highly recommend the laid back atmosphere for anyone who wants to get into OCR. And it is in the winter- how Canadian is that??

Next year obstacles. I’ll get you. Goal is to work on being able to get across the rings and swing myself across the rope. AND get more then two feet off the ground on the rope climb.

The swag was also great- I left with a tech t-shirt, buff, toque and awesome medal. Seriously some of the best swag from a race.

 

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And they had awesome music.

A goal without a plan is a dream

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Yup, it is that time of year. The gyms will be packed and diet food ads will be everywhere. The last couple of years, my big resolution has been to learn the djembe but I need to come across one before I can learn it. But I digress.

2016 was great for for my fitness strides. I learned that I love doing things and that I’m capable of things, I didn’t even imagine were possible a couple of years ago. I learned that there are so many people out there who have my back and are willing to help me reach whatever goal I choose to reach for. I learned that I have the ability to inspire others to do their own things. #warmfuzzies  I was fortunate enough to spend my New Years Eve doing things that make me happy in a sports trifecta of spinning, running and yoga.

My mantra for 2017 is “just go for it”. I have everything I need to accomplish my goals of 2017. Which are (see how I lead us there?)

  1. A goal of a 2:15-2:30 half marathon time. 2:30 should be reachable because with my bathroom delay of 2016’s Race Weekend I wasn’t that far off. Race weekend and Army Run, here I come.
  2. Work my way up to an Olympic distance triathlon. Starting with the Try a tri with Somersault’s Early Bird 
  3. 2017 km’s of biking, running or swimming.

Not too shabby, it looks like I’m in for a very exciting year. I’m glad you are coming along with me!

2016 in Review

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There is something about the fresh crunch of snow on January 1, that speaks to the fresh start of the new year. The possibility of what is to come, the promise and excitement of the unknown. Before I get there though, let’s talk about last year.

2016 was a huge year for me. I spent the first half of the year in physio recovering from the bus accident and I was fortunate to run my first half marathon. There were no record speeds happening but I dragged my plus sized self across the finish line. Two years ago, I couldn’t run more then five minutes. I am still blown away by the fact I did it. I also started bike commuting and made it until the end of November before I sadly packed my bike away. I now covet anyone I see on a fat bike and count down the days until I can get back out there. I joined a small group fitness class, that most days, I don’t think I’m going to finish the hour but I continue to go back and my burpee form is improving. I tried yoga and went kayaking. So many things I was terrified to do before. I did it.

I also “started” this blog. I have yet to really publish much but 2017 should be a different story. I want to really ramp up and get into the longer running distances and tri’s, I need this.

Now to end this up. Here is a shot of a few of the #RunningRoom buddies from the Slater store, finishing up a snowy Resolution Run.

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